I don't know where to begin

There is so much going on I can't organize my thoughts. From cars to jobs to schools to locations to relations...

Lets start with cars, I sold my wheels, suspension will be next after the season is over, then engine(s) and tranny, misc shit from my garage and Tyler's Dad's. I decided to start from scratch. No piece by piece BS, whats the point? I'm tired of looking at my car unsatisfied. I don't think it will ever be 'finished' but I can't keep suppressing the feeling I get when I look at it. Justifying the discrepancies I find. Either I will drive it the way I want it, or it will sit in a garage until it is the way I want it. Simple as that.

Jobs, what do you do after having a secure job for 5 years? Where do you go from that? I have no clue, but I do know McDonalds won't cut it.

School, which one, where, what major?

Like I said, where?

Everything circles back to everything. Sometimes I can't stand it, other times it goes to smoothly to notice. For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. How do you know whether or not to pursue the original action? Ask yourself if the juice is worth the squeeze.

A Year to Remember

This year has been one of a kind. There have been so many changes it makes my head spin. Everything from moving in January to 240s in March, 240s to problems at work, work to all the experiences I have had in my personal life. I look back on it like it was a movie, like I didn't control the outcome of these past 10 months. It's insane to look back at the plans that were made and see how they changed, some circling back to original plans after many changes.

The rust free season may come to an end early this year. I wouldn't be surprised if I break my car at the last D-Faction event of the year on Oct. 1st. My tranny has always made a worrisome sound, but it seems worse since the last two events I attended. I honestly don't care if it goes on me. Only thing that would be unfortunate is how far away my garage is from the event. Way I see it, as long as I have a gear (preferably higher than first) I can get home, even if it takes me all night. Otherwise I will dish out cash for a tow. It wouldn't break my heart if the car misses the fall meet in Boston, although I will be sad since I love the cruise. If it does make it, it is going down until spring for a major renovation after the meet regardless if snow has fallen or not.

I am hoping to move back towards Central Connecticut. The whole West Haven jam isn't bad by any means, but everything I enjoy is a bit of a drive now. New Haven traffic is retarded and it generally takes me an extra 45 minutes to an hour longer to get home than it does to get to work. I-95 is a poorly designed highway that makes me cringe half the time I drive on it. I deal with, just don't like it.

Next year pending the job/school situation I hope to drive in every drift event I can. I was cleaning out my basement and found an old tow bar. The kind you bolt to the front of a car, and tow with all 4 wheels on the ground. I may sell the winter beater Subaru for a truck that is 4x4 and capable of towing my 240. Not the best setup, but if it gives me piece of mind when drifting out of state it is worth it. Only problem I can see is if I fuck up a suspension component rather than engine/tranny. Who knows, perhaps I will try and source a cheap trailer the 240 will fit on. I like the driection Tyler is going, I just hope he registers the car next year. It is too fun to drive everywhere to only drive on a track.

I hope to build my own computer soon, tired of my 4 year old POS that is obsolete and slow. I swear I will never buy a dell again and would deter anyone from them. I have reformatted it 3 times and if I do it again, it will be with the Windows 7 I buy for the new computer. Looking forward to it. I am going to order the components this week, hopefully be using it by the end of next weekend at the latest.

Not much else going on, everything seems to be stand still. Everything is pending something else out of my control... hate it when that happens.

Decisions

I finally made up my mind. Not voicing it until it's final though, I am tired of a lot of talk and no actions.

I really want a new computer. I have one, but I got it like 4 1/2 years ago and I am tired of fixing it, tired of it not being able to handle more than one task at a time without taking longer than it would if I did them back to back rather than at the same time. Going for a laptop this time. I always disliked them but it was mostly the keyboards/size. I am looking at an Asus G73, it is rather large and heavy, but has a 10 digit keypad and when I type on it I don't feel claustrophobic. Unfortunately I probably wont get it until November (or later).

One last D-Faction event this year on Oct 1st, I will be going to that. First event I was disappointed in myself but turns out it was mostly my tires fault, Second event I did better but hated my tires on front almost as much as the first event and now want more power. This event it was suggested I drive faster. Makes it hard when the first corner is easily a 3rd gear entry and you have a stock KA24E. I know I can't keep the tires spinning. Hopefully I will get Jay/Landers/Ryan to ride along and give me some more pointers. Ryan did my first event but with my tire selection nothing I did made any difference. Hopefully I can make a run, get a suggestion and try it the next run. Slowly improve just in time to park my car for the winter... This event will be longer to my knowledge, starting at 1 instead of 4 but going until 8-9ish. Going to ask for the day off this time.

All my fun and games aside, gotta get some serious stuff figured out. After it's straight, it's on.

West Haven is fine minus being new and away from all the 240 guys I enjoy hanging out with. Life with a roommate is great when your GF is as awesome as mine. Otherwise I prefer to live solo I think. Still getting adjusted to not doing what I want with the drop of a hat/keeping a schedule with someone else, but making a valid effort and everything seems to be going smoothly.


I just realized I still havent put on my suspension arms. Definitely need to do that and get an alignment before Oct 1st. Fuck.